Last year started with the news that we would bring a new baby into the world and we were hopeful and excited for a new little one to love. Unfortunately, we miscarried in February and spent several months trying to decide where we would go from there. Our bond as a family grew over those months and even though the experience was painful, we all took something good from it and healing became easier. I started feeling more like myself and confident that another baby was waiting for us so we decided to try again in September and I immediately got pregnant again. I tried not to get too excited but I remained hopeful that things would work out and my pregnancy would remain healthy. At about six weeks, the weekend of my 25th birthday, we miscarried again. Finding strength the second time around seemed impossible but we pushed through. I took each day as it came and gave myself permission to embrace my feelings as I felt them and it became easier once again. Celebrating on New Years Eve was bitter sweet, one whole year had passed since that first positive pregnancy test and we had gone through a lot but we were looking to the fresh start a new year had to offer us. We ended the year with a sigh of relief, ready to say goodbye to all the pain of 2015 and hello to the endless possibilities 2016 has in store. The future is bright!
I wouldn't have been able to make it through without all of my wonderful family and friends who let me speak openly about my loss and gave me so much love and support. I have appreciated every single kind word and gesture. Thank you all for sticking around, checking in on me via social media, and encouraging me to come back when the time felt right. It feels good to be back! xo