I try not to get extremely personal here on the blog, but I'm so struck down by tragedy I don't know what else to do besides get it out here. Yesterday I lost a dear friend of mine. I keep thinking I'll wake up and it will all be a hoax, some sick joke he created to make sure we all still care.I haven't woken up yet.
I met him eight years ago, before I even knew my husband. He was one of those crazy friends that constantly came up with ideas that would undoubtedly get us in some sort of trouble, but in those days I was down for anything. We would party and sit under the stars and talk about the universe and all the secret mysteries it held. He questioned everything around him, a quality that I will always admire. He never took anything at face value, he always had to dig deeper for the truth, for the meaning of life.
I remember the days after I met my husband (they were best friends), the three of us did everything together. We would take long drives and listen to our music blare with the windows down through winding country roads. He helped me find my soulmate and when I was scared of love, he shoved me towards Jared knowing that we were meant for each other.
There were times when I hated him, when I was so frustrated by his lack of faith in himself. I could see that he was greater than the path he had chosen, I think we all could see it. I was so hard on him sometimes, begging him to see his potential, begging him to get help. I wanted him to be there for my husband, there to watch my children grow up. I never thought he would be taken so quickly from us.
Sometimes I think that he was too much for this world to handle, he was too passionate, he loved too deeply. He would have done anything for any one of his friends. He would have went to the edge of the world and back of any one of us.
Addiction is a disease that not many can overcome. Even with a heard of people behind you for support, it can still be the biggest mountain to climb. I have lost too many of my close friends due to addiction. If you or someone you know is struggling with their addiction, never be afraid to be that friend who sticks their hand out, never turn your back, never give up. You never know when you could be saving someone from themselves.
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Rest In Peace Jeremy Fritz. 2.17.88-1.21.13