Tuesday, January 22, 2013

I try not to get extremely personal here on the blog, but I'm so struck down by tragedy I don't know what else to do besides get it out here. Yesterday I lost a dear friend of mine. I keep thinking I'll wake up and it will all be a hoax, some sick joke he created to make sure we all still care.I haven't woken up yet.
 I met him eight years ago, before I even knew my husband. He was one of those crazy friends that constantly came up with ideas that would undoubtedly get us in some sort of trouble, but in those days I was down for anything. We would party and sit under the stars and talk about the universe and all the secret mysteries it held. He questioned everything around him, a quality that I will always admire. He never took anything at face value, he always had to dig deeper for the truth, for the meaning of life.
I remember the days after I met my husband (they were best friends), the three of us did everything together. We would take long drives and listen to our music blare with the windows down through winding country roads. He helped me find my soulmate and when I was scared of love, he shoved me towards Jared knowing that we were meant for each other.
There were times when I hated him, when I was so frustrated by his lack of faith in himself. I could see that he was greater than the path he had chosen, I think we all could see it. I was so hard on him sometimes, begging him to see his potential, begging him to get help. I wanted him to be there for my husband, there to watch my children grow up. I never thought he would be taken so quickly from us.
Sometimes I think that he was too much for this world to handle, he was too passionate, he loved too deeply. He would have done anything for any one of his friends. He would have went to the edge of the world and back of any one of us.
Addiction is a disease that not many can overcome. Even with a heard of people behind you for support, it can still be the biggest mountain to climb. I have lost too many of my close friends due to addiction. If you or someone you know is struggling with their addiction, never be afraid to be that friend who sticks their hand out, never turn your back, never give up. You never know when you could be saving someone from themselves.
For more information on addiction and how you can help read more here.

Rest In Peace Jeremy Fritz. 2.17.88-1.21.13


13 comments:

  1. So sorry for your loss. Praying for you and his friends and family.

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  2. I'm terribly sorry to hear about your loss. My thoughts and prayers go out to you and your husband

    Summer x

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  3. I'm so sorry you lost such a person. I will send good vibes and positive thoughts your way. ♥

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  4. I am so sorry to read this. Sometimes writing about what is going on is what helps us grieve. I am so sorry for your loss and you will be in my thoughts and prayers.

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  5. This breaks my heart. I'm so incredibly sorry.

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  6. So sorry for your loss! You are in my thoughts!

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  7. I'm so sorry and sending positivity and love your way.

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  8. I'm sorry to hear of the loss of your friend. I'm thinking about you and your family.

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  9. Oh my goodness I am so so sorry for your heartache. This was really lovely to read, and I cheers to you for being honest on your blog. Wish I had the words to make it better.
    Trish


    www.jellybonesblog.blogspot.com

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  10. So sorry to hear this, I know all to well what horrible pain and suffering addiction can cause to the ones doing it and their loved ones, hope you guys can remember the good times and be thankful for having been able to have had him in your life...xo

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  11. I am soo sorry for your loss. I can't even begin to imagine how you must be feeling.

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  12. I'm so sorry love. I lost my best friend to suicide. It's hard to lose someone before their when they are still young. My thoughts are with you.

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  13. I'm so sorry to read this. Thinking about you, I know it must be a really hard time at the moment.

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