I want to start off by saying thank you to all of my lovely readers who sent their positive thoughts and love my way this past week. It seriously means a lot to have such wonderful support from all of you and it's definitely helped get me through. I feel like I have been absent here for months but in reality it's only been a few days, thank you guys for being so patient with me during this unplanned blog break.
I've needed to be around my friends these past few days, losing one of us has definitely brought us closer together and made us realize how much we all rely on each other for love and support. Yesterday we spent the whole day at his house with his family remembering all of the amazing times we had, all the times that seemed so insignificant. Who would have know that all the simple things will be what we miss the most? I don't know how many times I wanted to text him yesterday and then remembered that I couldn't.
I think most healing feelings came from a card discovered in his desk drawer. It was written to my husband while he was in bootcamp, two days from coming home, but was never sent. In the card he expresses his love for my husband and the friendship they shared and in a way it brought us a little closure, knowing how much he missed Jared while he was gone and how much he respected their friendship. The first thing I'm going to do is frame that card.
Last night was his memorial and it was a beautiful thing to see all of his loved ones gathered together celebrating his life. I loved hearing his siblings tell stories about the young Jeremy I never knew and it was comforting to hear from them how much they loved all of us for being supportive and keeping him safe. I didn't know how hard it would be to sit in that room and hear all of his favorite songs play but I know this is only the beginning. There are going to many rough days ahead but I'm trying to think positively and take them in stride.
Tonight we are getting together for shots in his honor because honestly,WWJD? (What Would Jeremy Do)
I'm so glad to have friends that are closer to me than my blood, who care deeply about one another, who are always down to help(or celebrate), and who make this life much more easy to live.
Peace, Love, Fritz.
"We will be friends until the day we die, and if there is a place after death we will be friends there too."